At my first show I didn't place at all, I remember feeling so embarrassed standing at the side of the curtain and being pulled off stage like I wasn't worthy of being next to the girls with the trophies and medals despite all my work. I realized I had a horrible relationship with food and my body which was revealed to me post-show.

From Nov. 2015 on I made a decision that my mindset wouldn't be what held me back. I immersed myself into personal development, psychology, self-help, healing, mentorship, therapy, support, and all things inner work.

When I stepped back on stage in August 2018, I placed top 5 and then again in February I won my class of over 15 girls and placed top 3 in open. My mind supported me through a double peak week and drove my body into high gear earning me a National Qualification a week later. I had been prepping for 52 weeks, took some time to grow and came back in June with another top 5 placing. And again in September, top 5 again...My journey did not stop there. I competed through the tumultuous year of 2020 with cancellations and unpredictability but kept going and eventually stepped on the national stage for the first time. I have truly only just begun.

Success and persistence in this sport is no accident.

I couldn't have owned it on stage, killed it in the gym, stuck to my diet 100%, or pushed through all these long preps and big improvement seasons if I was constantly consumed with thoughts of food, comparing myself to other athletes, feeling disconnected from my goals, longing for a cheat meal, slacking on cardio, being okay with half-assing it in any way shape or form.

Without the identity of a champion, which can only be created by shedding the old identities that didn't serve me and focusing on my mindset day in and day out, I couldn't have had fulfilling experiences throughout my preps or improvement seasons enough to keep my head in the game.

Even the athletes I interview on my Podcast, 'Confessions of a Bikini Pro' who have won top placings on the most prestigious stages like the Olympia and the Arnold as well as those who have won top tier shows, been in this sport for years, earn points, and/or fought their way to the top all attribute their success to their mindset.

We even have some IFBB Pros in this On-Demand Platform that you may recognize when you jump in to join us!

Needless to say, there are always going to be some competitors who win titles, points, championships, and trophies without doing any mindset work, but how long do they last? Most of them dwindle and disappear or go through so much that it isn't even fulfilling for them anymore. The worst is when they quit, it breaks my heart to see them quit over issues that can and could have been resolved with deep inner work.

The point is, I made this so that if you are in a pinch, don't know what to do, feel lost, can't stand the weight on your shoulders any longer, or just need the mental boost as an elite athlete, you will ALWAYS have a place to go to receive INSTANT support when you sign up to work with me or join my On-Demand Mindset Coaching Platform.

I take mental health seriously, I know time is of the essence when you are facing an internal struggle, and you deserve a solution and support immediately.